a few photos...

here are a few photos of mike and i before i headed to work last night to tie you over until i can get a good update in tonight! i promise to update about the past few days, i've just been a busy busy bee! hope you all had a lovely holiday and are gearing up for the new year! i'm going to make this one a good one! <3


Merry Christmas!

Sorry to be one of fifteen million blogs to crowd up your reading space with a text-only post but I wanted to say Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Happy Friday, or whatever it is for whatever you celebrate before heading off to be with my extended family! I have so many great things in store for you with the new year so be ready!


Things I Love Thursday! (photo edition)

How To Pick Yourself Up Off The Floor

♥ Immerse yourself in something positive. Volunteer at a no kill animal shelter. Read to the elderly. Start an art project. Do something to create a positive influence for yourself. Negative thoughts and places are dangerous when you’re down.

♥ Stop letting yourself only see the negatives when you look in the mirror. I used to always think “I’d be acceptable looking if I lost 10 pounds and my skin was better.” and that’s all I saw. I saw the negatives first and I almost never saw the positives. What do you like about yourself? What good things to others see in you? Why are you unique? How are you beautiful?

♥ Avoid negative people for a while. It’s best to cut those people out all together, but that’s not always possible. Just take a break. You’re weak right now and you need to avoid people who will further bring you down.

♥ Don’t be afraid to take it easy and don’t beat yourself up for it. Just like if you had a cold, you’d try to make yourself feel better with medicine, rest, and good eating habits. You’re under the weather right now, just not physically. Do things you like, surround yourself with people you love, and don’t forget to fill your life with positive energy 24/7.

♥ Try something new. Change up your hair or your clothes. Stop listening to music that reinforces how you’re currently feeling. Stop watching sad movies.

♥ Buy a blank notebook. Draw a huge heart on the cover. Don’t write anything negative in here. If you need another outlet, make a separate notebook. This one is all about love, personal growth, and getting back up. Fill it with beautiful images, reaffirming thoughts, and quotes. Write in it every day, and each day write one thing you’re grateful for in your life.

♥ Get on a healthier path. Stop eating junk food. Quit smoking. Cut back on sugar. Start exercising. Get plenty of sleep. Buy some daily vitamins and drink a lot of tea each day. Replace unhealthy foods with plenty of fruits and vegetables and drink TONS of water.

♥ Pick up a new skill and refine it.

♥ Go to the bookstore and navigate yourself to the self help section. Choose a book that appeals to you the most and best applies. Read it and then go back for another.

♥ Dedicate at least two hours of your day to yourself. This is your writing, thinking, and growing time. You’re on a mission, you need time to complete it.

♥ Find someone you can talk to. Have deep conversations with them.

♥ Do not let yourself sink into your old habits even when you start to feel better. If you fall of the wagon, get right back on it.

♥ Make a list of your negative traits that you feel can be improved. Work on them one by one.

♥ Don’t be that person who’s always complaining or upset. When you talk to people, be positive. Find the good in every situation and point it out.

♥ Never be embarrassed or afraid to admit that you’re not the strongest right now. Be honest. Everyone’s been there. Don’t hide behind a mask.

♥ Don’t jump into new relationships or cling on to people for stability. Be your own rock.

♥ Be open. Try new things. Go out and do something. Meet new people. Explore opportunities.

Quoteeeeeee Overload!

"I heard what you said. I’m not the silly romantic you think. I don’t want the heavens or the shooting stars. I don’t want gemstones or gold. I have those things already. I want…a steady hand. A kind soul. I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe. I want to love, and be loved."
Shana Abé


Optimism is a strategy for making a better future. Because unless you believe that the future can be better, it’s unlikely you will step up and take responsibility for making it so. If you assume that there’s no hope, you guarantee that there will be no hope. If you assume that there is an instinct for freedom, there are opportunities to change things, there’s a chance you may contribute to making a better world. The choice is yours."
Noam Chomsky


"You talk when you cease to be at peace with your thoughts."
Kahlil Gibrán


"Everybody is a genius. But, if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will spend its whole life believing that it is stupid"
Albert Einstein


"Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are."
Erick S. Gray


"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."
-Frank Herbert, Dune


"There’s nowhere you can be that isn’t where you’re meant to be…"
John Lennon


"I don’t know that love changes. People change. Circumstances change."
Nicholas Sparks


"Excuse me Reverend, as long as two people love each other, I don’t think God cares whether they have the same who who or ha ha."
Marge Simpson


"I must say a word about fear. It is life’s only true opponent. Only fear can defeat life. It is a clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy. It goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unnerving ease. It begins in your mind, always … so you must fight hard to express it. You must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Because if you don’t, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never truly fought the opponent who defeated you."
Yann Martel, Life of Pi


"Going to church doesn’t make you any more a Christian than going to the garage makes you a car."
Laurence Peter


"It’s not the load that breaks you down, it’s the way you carry it."
Lou Holtz


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Questions Answered: Round Three!

(follow up to Round One and Round Two)

1.) I know this may be too personal, but I'll stretch the limit since people do it to me all the time, but what was your childhood like? I've always been interesting in how people grew up and what they've become.
Hmm.. my childhood. it was an interesting one (who's isn't?!)… it was really just my mom and myself… my dad kind of blew us off early on so he was in and out of my life the whole time. i went 7 years without seeing him once, and ever since i was 13 its been a very turbulent relationship. i haven't seen him in a year and a half and honestly, things are better this way. it was my ultimate decision. my mom and i fought A LOT. i mean, i guess you could expect that… i was an angry angry child… soooo much pent up emotion and anger towards my father but i'd take it out on her (unaware at the time that this was the reason). but over the years things got way better. by the time i moved out on my own, we had become best best best friends. and to this day she's STILL my very best friend on the planet. i can't go a single day without talking to her and when im in nyc i call her about 5 times a day. she's the most amazing woman on the planet and i'm so thankful for her. the rest of my childhood was just spent playing with the neighborhood boys. i was the only girl on the block so i'd have to play tag, hide & go seek and football. i loved it. i was a realllll tomboy for a long time. SUPER tomboy. i would dry-heave at the thought of a dress. true facts. but as i got older i started to reallyyyyy get feminine. and now i dry heave at the thought of jeans and i only wear dresses. amazing how things change, huh? i played sports my entire life. cheerleading from 4 yrs. to 14, volleyball from 13 to 18, and softball from 4 to 18. it was good stuff :D

2.) what exactly happened with you and adam? you say you stuck by him through the good the bad and the ugly? can you say what exactly happened it a sort of detailed nutshell?
it's about 3 hours after i originally posted this and i'm changing my answer. i removed everything i typed for a reason... i'm beyond happy with the relationship i'm currently in... happier than i've ever been in my entire life in any relationship... so with that being said, i know what happened with Adam and our falling out was supposed to happen. my relationship with him was meant to end. it was meant to end so that this could begin again. had it not been for the sequence of events in both mike's life and my own, we never would have found each other again. i'm happy and content with the way things turned out so i can only hope that adam finds someone who he's willing to be 100% honest with 100% of the time. he has the potential to be a wonderful person and a great companion... it just wasn't supposed to be me. so i end any and all things that i've ever said about him in a negative light on that note. if you missed my original answer, i apologize. but i suppose thats really just history. and that shall stay there. thanks for understanding :)

3.) How were you different when you were 16-19? Were you ever rebellious? Were you scene? Did you date a lot of guys?
man oh man oh man! boy was i ever different! in high school i definitely went through the scene phase… but it was the front end of it. like, my 9th grade through 11th grade years (2002 - 2004). not like scene is today. but i definitely did it. i remember my myspace name was "x kaelah cutthroat x at one point HAHAHAH SOMEONE ACTUALLY CAME UP TO ME AT A SHOW AND REFERRED TO ME AS THAT! WTF?! im glad i got over it. i was never really "rebellious"… i never even drank until new years of my senior year. i've only ever tried pot (and that wasn't until i was in college).. nothing else. and i don't drink OR smoke OR do any drugs or anything anymore. but i deffff had my "~wild" stage the summer after moving out on my own. i was from a tiny town so you can imagine the slight culture shock of moving to franklin/nashville, etc. coming and going as i please, all that jazz. i dated a ton of guys that summer. i never tied myself down to anyone for long. i dated mike that year, too, the first time. but it was in my freshman year that i met adam, so we dated for 3 years and only recently split. i've been with mike ever since. granted during the time that adam and i were off and on over this past year, i dated a lot of dudes, but it was nothing serious and it wasn't sleeping around or anything of the sort. just casual dating. :)

4.) My hair is fine and I don't know a thing about styling my hair! What should I do with it? I usually just put it up in a ponytail and call it a day.
lordy girl my hair is super fine too! i mean it is thinnnnnnnnerrr than bible paper! gah! its frustrating, right?! theres so much you can do for it. dirty it up a little bit and curl it, scrunch it loosely with rave hairspray, etc! i could maybe give you better ideas if i had a picture of it? i don't have to show it to everyone, but if you'd like i can post it on here and people can give their suggestions! you can block out your face if you want to, or not if you don't haha :D but it could be helpful!

5.) Do you feel like boys are better friends than girls?
not necessarily. granted i grew up with nothing but guys around so i just came to know how to be "one of the boys", but truth be told, as mike just said to me (i read this question to him) i'm SOOOOO not a fan of passive aggression… and 75% of girls are nothing but passive aggressive. like… if something's bothering you, speak up. don't get snarky behind backs and sneer and chit chat amongst people who aren't even involved… just man up, grow some balls and stand up for yourself you know? i have lots of girl friends now (more than ever before, actually), but i also have lots of dude friends. i just like being able to relax and kick it with the boys sometimes. luckily the girls i'm friends with here in franklin have the mental attitudes of guys so they don't let petty drama seep in anywhere, its so nice :D

6.) What are your biggest pet peeves?
WHEN I CAN HEAR PEOPLE EAT! OH. MY. LORD! YOU HAVE NO IDEA! mike was eating something earlier and i could hear him chew and i just shot him the death glare… I CANNOT STAND IT! i feel like it makes me a bad person because i'm so intolerable of this.. but whatever. and when people scrape their forks and spoons in their bowl/plate… HELLO! FOOD WILL NOT MAGICALLY REAPPEAR BECAUSE YOU ARE SCRAPING TO THE BOTTOM OF THE EARTH! YOU ATE IT ALL, PLEASE STOP NOW! typically thats really it. i just hate hearing people eat food. :) [/end rant!]

7.) what's your favorite thing about yourself?
physically, mentally, etc? physically i like my lips. i love the shape and the slight pout. idk i just like them. and mentally…. my new optimistic attitude that i've managed to find over the past year or so. seriously… i'm able to hand stress and stuff SO MUCH BETTER. its so nice! :D thanks for asking this though.. sometimes i only concentrate on the negative stuff (i have my days where i doubt myself substantially) but this question helped me realize that i need to use that new optimism and focus on the good :D

8.) You wear your style with such confidence, are you confident with the way you look? I mean i know everyone has some flaws, but explain how you feel overall.
like i said in the question above, i def have days where i just doubt myself completely. i get super self conscious and i'm worried about how i look to other people and how i feel about myself… whether its body issues or intellectually… sometimes i just do not feel up to par. sometimes i wear things that even I am like WTF AM I WEARING?! AM I REALLY GOING TO ATTEMPT THIS?! but i just do it… the key is to fake it until you make it. even if you're questioning what you're attempting to do… don't ever let anyone else know that. don't let anyone else see the insecure side of you because then they'll focus on it. if you make them think that you're nothing but confident, they'll never second guess you. i promise this is true. how do you think i made it through high school and managed to snag Best Dressed senior year? i promise… some of the crap I wore makes me cringe to this day! :D

Feel free to ask me anything HERE... i'll be happy to answer them <3


Tattoo Tuesday! (My Edition)

In my formsprings I received lots of questions about my own tattoos, their meanings, etc, and was asked if I'd care to share. So here they are... in all their glory. I'll start with the oldest and work my way to the more recent...

My first tattoo was a sparrow on my right hip done on my 18th birthday. The colors are blue, green and orange... no significance to the colors really. Cliche but whatever, the bird symbolized my ~freedom and all that jazz.. you know, where you think you own the world when you're 18 haha i love my little bird though. I typically forget I even have him. (March 2006)

My 2nd (and 3rd, i guess) tattoos came in August of 2006, when I was first dating Mike (he sat with me at the shop and held my hand the entire time haha crazy!). They say Art and Love on each of my feet. The plan was based off MeWithoutYou's "god is love love is real" but "art is love love is real" i just never finished it because i didnt care for the way he did the lettering. therefore my current artist will be covering both of them up with traditional roses, etc etc etc. it will be one of my first ventures after i finish my full sleeve.

In April of 2007 I got the first Kurt Halsey piece on my upper arm. The "There are places and there are opportunities" piece with the 2 kids, etc etc etc. Then slowly I started realizing I wanted to make it a half sleeve so I added 3 other Kurt pieces plus the pigs from "Numb" (one of his pieces) and it was completed in October of 2007. The first picture of this sleeve is after 5 sessions. I did 7 or 8 sessions total.

The text on the bottom reads "this song means an entire city to me"

The whole meaning behind the sleeve is representative of the fact that I KNOW i'll be up & leaving tennessee... there are bigger things for me out there and thats the plan (obviously, since i've already migrated to NYC). We colored the suitcase yellow because I have a fascination with vintage luggage. The first piece i ever bought was a super beat up yellow set from goodwill and i cherish it to this day. I guess its just a reflection of knowing I'll have to say goodbye to my home state to find things that are right for me. Pre-nostalgia if you will.

The last day of January this year (January 2009) I got my chest piece by Jason Smith (my current artist) because he was one of my best friend's artists. I got "Alis Volat Propriis" which is Latin for "She Flies With Her Own Wings"... as soon as I saw the quote (and translation), i KNEW exactly what I wanted on my chest. I'd always wanted a chest piece but committing to something there is a hefty decision. This was perfect and i think it sums me up to the T. It's a direct reflection of myself and how my mother raised me. I love love love it.

This is the top of my full sleeve on my right arm. It was started in March of 2009 by Jason. I wanted a traditional-style ship and the quote "I cannot change the direction of the wind but i can adjust my sails" to symbolize my positive and optimistic attitude on life. You can't control what life deals you but attitude means everything.

Basically if you wanted me to break it down, the boat symbolizes me and the lighthouse up in the dark stormy clouds symbolizes my mother (the top half sleeve is pretty much dedicated to her). She's always been my "guiding light" (*cue cheesy music*) and I know that I can always count on her to guide me the right way.

On the inside of the half sleeve is my mom's portrait. It's her senior portrait from 1978 and it totally resembles Axel from Guns 'n Roses... my mom was a badass! It's inside a baroque frame because they're my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE. we still have to finish out the detail on her portrait and then we're coloring in teh frame the same color as the bottom of the boat. we're just letting my inner arm rest because it's not hte most pleasurable experience.

The newest edition was to take my half sleeve into a full sleeve. I've already raved on my insane love for cephalopods and all things octopus related so I got one on my forearm. The swirls behind it is an ink cloud. We're coloring him orange/maroon/purple and then on my inner forearm is a treasure chest and we still have to outline the compass too.

Last tuesday we worked for 3 hours on the ink cloud alone. and my arm is NOTTTT having it. man oh man its healing horribly. my arm is not a fan of black but whatev, we'll just make it work! go over it again! haha I was supposed to sit yesterday but i just did nottt have time :(

so thats where i'm at currently with tattoos. and believe me i wont be stopping anytime soon. in the works: my feet coverups, a tribute to my nana & papa on each calf, a big ass sweet shark tattoo on my ribs/side, probably something else on my left forearm, etc etc etc. its never ending.

i love all of my work and i can't wait to get more.

if you have any questions about any of them feel free to ask. i didnt go into *too* much detail and i know photobooth pictures suck but i still haven't found my card reader. bleh!

do you have any tattoos? if so, what of and where? what do they mean?

xo happy tattoo tuesday!



ITS ABOUT TIME, AMIRIGHT?!?! so I didn't have time to do any album art for this one, i'm sorry! and honestly, it was thrown together last minute but they're all fantastic songs and hopefully i'll be over the whole holiday hullabaloo by next monday! we've literally been going non-stop all day! but i'll save that for our daily roundup!

here's the tracklisting for the album!

12-21-09 MIXTAPE!
(Click On Title To Download)

o1) YACHT - Psychic City
o2) CARBON LEAF - What About Everything?
o3) FROU FROU - It's Good To Be In Love
o4) MARGOT & THE NUCLEAR SO & SOs - Skeleton Key
o5) KINGS OF CONVENIENCE - I'd Rather Dance With You
o6) YACHT - Your Magic Is Real
o7) THROW ME THE STATUE - Moonbeams
o8) BEACH HOUSE - Heart And Lungs

Enjoy! Let me know how you like it! Songs #1, #2 and #4 are my favorites currently!


Questions Answered: Round Two!

Here we go! A follow-up to Round One!

1.) How come Adam is such a prick about giving you your money back?
Gosh, I wish I knew. He claims he "doesn't have it"... but the truth is simple, he does. He manages to fly to Las Vegas and he bought his plane ticket for Nashville, and apparently he's going to Indiana? I dont know... It's better that I don't comment on things like that. He's shown time and time again he's just plain irresponsible with his money. He thinks he can get away with not paying me if he drags it out long enough. He's done this before. When we first broke up he owed me a couple hundred and it took him OVER SIX MONTHS to give me barely half of it. yeah. I'm not letting it go that long this time. If every red cent, and my belongings, aren't forked over the day his plane touches down in Nashville, the good ol' justice system will be involved. I've already warned him that I do not say this in vain. I've taken it upon myself to speak to a couple attorneys thus far to basically test the waters and all systems are a GO.

2.) What make-up do you use?
Here's the general breakdown:
- Primer: FreshMinerals Smoothing Prep Primer (I SWEAR by this stuff!)
- Foundation: MAC Moistureblend in NW25.
- Powder: Maybelline Mineral Power in Light 3.
- Blush: NARS Orgasm or CG TruBlend MicroMinerals in Natural Rose.
- Face: Sephora 3-piece Face Sculpting Kit
- Eyeliner: MAC pencil in black.
- Eyebrows: CG Eyebrow Pencil in Henna Brown.
- Mascara: Maybelline XXL Extensions
- Lips: MAC Plushglass in Ample Pink & MAC Cremesheen Lipstick in Creme Cup.

3.) Could you do a picture post with all of your tattoos and why you decided to get them? Even if there's no cool particular reason, I'd like to see 'em up close!
I'm planning on doing this for this coming week's Tattoo Tuesday because I've had SO many people ask so check back! I have a session scheduled for Monday so hopefully I'll have more work on my sleeve to show!

4.) What's your opinion on sex before marriage, and I guess along with that, are you religious/spiritual at all?
I don't think you should go around just sleeping with any and everyone, but I don't necessarily think you should HAVE to wait until marriage. It's all about where you are as a person, couple, etc. I've seen both extremes. I've seen individuals parade around and sleep with any/everyone. I've also seen people who wear their virginity like some kind of gold robe. Granted, the people I've experienced who have chosen to wait were often times very self-righteous. I've known people who let sex be the driving force to get married. And if that's the case, what's the point?! If it came down to it, divorce is more devastating than pre-marital sex. And I consider myself a Christian, although I'm far from the ideal/best/whatever. I consider myself way more spiritual than religious, however. But honestly, I just have an open mind to any/everything. I'm a student of the universe, and that's the best way to put it.

5.) Do you ever regret getting back together with Adam the second time around?
No, even after all the bullcrap and drama and heartache, I don't regret. It's unfortunate that he turned out to be the person that he is, but that's life. People grow up (or fail to) and change. I'm ever-changing and it's so very safe to say that I'm far from the same person I was when I started dating him at age 18. I give people the benefit of the doubt. That's just in my nature. I try to see the good in every person (and often-times fail to see the bad, ever). I will never regret that part of my personality. I've just grown to learn that not every person is what they say and I have to use proper judgment. The three years I spent with Adam taught me how to handle relationships, friendships, dishonesty, living with another person, sharing my life, and letting go. Those are experiences that I would never want to be without. But in the same respect, I also now know that I will not tolerate ever being treated or manipulated like I was with him, ever again. It's always a learning experience. I feel a little bit upset in the way that I let many amazing opportunities and many amazing men walk right out of my life because I wasn't willing to give up on Adam. But that's all in the past and I'm so so grateful for where I am currently in my relationship with Mike, my family, and my friends. It wouldn't have been possible if Adam hadn't been in my life. It's a true testament to my loyalty, though. If I think something is worth it, I'll fight for it until I have absolutely no fight left in me. :)

6.) How do your friends feel about Adam versus Mike?
Well, it's pretttttty safe to say that my friends were NOT fans of Adam towards the latter half of our relationship. They had seen the good, the bad, and the down-right ugly. Granted all of them seemed to like him in the beginning. But its just like anything else, the veneer begins to wear thin and true personalities start to emerge. Every single friend, with the exception of one (who i still love dearly), was against me ever getting back with Adam. Many begged for me to break it off long long ago. But I stood by his side every time he came calling and needed direction and purpose in life. I used to think they just didn't want me to be happy. And I truly truly wanted things to work out with he and I. I thought I had met my soul mate. Maybe I had. Maybe I had met my soul mate, but just as Eat, Pray, Love states, a soul mate is not one who sticks around forever for its too painful. It was just that. As I started my "new life" without him, people could see the difference. I wasn't always on edge, I was happier, I was way more optimistic, etc. Then Mike came back in my life and ever since I've been all smiles. I'm trying to implement the things that Adam taught me through our relationship into my relationship with Mike. My best friend Bryan has a note in his wallet, and I have a matching one in mine, that says "Relationships are a compromise".. Amazing. I see it every day and I work towards that in every relationship... be it with a boyfriend, a best friend, a neighbor, or my family. Elle made mention the other night that Mike was by far her "favorite of my boyfriends" so this is good news. He has a positive aura about him and I love showing him off. It's been a pleasant transition. :)

Hokay! Sorry that was long! In total thats 10 questions answered thus far! woo! Feel free to ask an anonymous question HERE and I'll post it/answer it soon!


Style School!

I finally signed up for Elsie's Style School! I was afraid I wouldn't be able to get a spot but low and behold, I did! So very excited for crafty projects to come! Merry Christmas to myself! If you want to take part in the 6-week course, hop on over to the Style School page at Elsie's blog and sign up! Click HERE to learn more!

Who else is a Style Schooler?! Say Hello so I can add your button to my blog! <3


Holiday Giveaway! a Big Ol' Package!

It's the season of giving, so in honor of the holiday festivities I'm giving away a big ol' package of knicky-knacky things! Yes, i realize that sooo isn't a word. whatever! :) This contest will run until 11pm CST/12 midnight EST Monday night! It'll be a relatively quick one! But this is so I can have things mailed off TUESDAY MORNING at the absolute latest! So you'll *possibly* receive it before Christmas (if you're not 2,000+ miles away, at least).

Here's what you'll be receiving!
+ Keep Calm And Carry On journal
+ Multi-color Sequin beret
+ 3 large Belly Button tattoos (weird, right?!)
+ One White Oversize Bow Headband
+ One Gold Metal Chain-Link Headband
+ One Vintage Silver Wild Cat Brooch
+ One Hello Kitty Hologram Spiral Mini-Notebook
+ One Hello Kitty Ribbon Reporter Notepad
+ One Japanese-inspired Character Pencil Holder

Phew! that was a lot of stuff. Okay.. so HERE is how you win!

+ You get 1 entry for Following my blog. (Just click "Follow" in the top toolbar)
+ You get 1 entry for posting about this giveaway on your Twitter.
+ You get 1 entry for posting about this giveaway in YOUR blog.
+ You get 2 entries for adding my blog button to the side of your blog, myspace, or livejournal profile.

So with that being said, you have the chance to enter FIVE TIMES! Please provide links (or screenshots if your twitter is protected) for each of the entries! (I'll be able to look and see if you follow me, so that doesn't require a link!)

Anyway, good luck!

And Seletha, your bracelets are on their way to you!

Thanks for playing everyone!


Questions Answered: Round One

Out of the submissions there have been so far, I wanted to break down the questions into WAY smaller groups and handle them that way as opposed to having 20+ q&a in one post.

Here we go!

1.) If i email you will i be totally embarassed? :P
No way! There's absolutely no reason why you should be shy or embarassed to email me! About anything! Receiving emails from my readers is hands down my favorite part of my blog. Honest! And if you're still self-conscious about it, make a new/anonymous gmail account and email me from it! :) I promise I won't be creeped out or anything like that! I love emailing new people back and forth! I hope you decide to! (kaelahbee at gmail dot com)

2.) It's pretty apparent that you really love fashion, do you ever draw your own sketches or designs that you might one day want to make into a collection?
I spent my entire first year of college as a Fashion Design + Merch major, and after many many stressful nights in the sewing lab, I realized it wasn't my true passion. I do love doodling outfits and things like that (who doesn't?!) and we ALLLL know i LOVE clothes! haha But I'm perfecting my sewing skills (at least attempting to) with the intention of opening my own independent retail store at some point in my life. I'd love to have a small store with independent labels and maybe some of my own stuff eventually. I definitely definitely see it in my future. :)

3.) What are some things you do on days where you don't have much self esteem/don't feel very beautiful? In other words, how do you channel your inner confidence?
This is a really good question because believe me, I definitely have those days. As silly as it sounds, something as simple as curling my hair for no occasion whatsoever usually helps a little. Granted, its a vanity thing, but it feels SO nice to just dress up for myself. I've said it in another post before, but i like to dress up for ME. because I AM THE OCCASION. (click HERE to read the post... it's hands down one of my top 3 posts I've ever made on this blog). And upon knowing that I don't need anyone else to give me a reason, I also realize that absolutely no one else is responsible for my feelings. So I pick my chin up, put on my favorite dress, spend extra time on my makeup and hair... even if all I have planned is cleaning my room. It gives me an extra pep in my step. I lost that a little bit this semester towards the end because it was so stressful, but when I managed to "woMAN-UP" then i felt a lot better. maybe thats just me :D sorry that answer was SO. DRAWN. OUT. haha <3

4.) what's you fav drink at house parties? and fav shots at the bars?
Conveniently enough, my favorite drink and my favorite shot are both the same. Just add ice! haha I drink New Old Ladies (Which is: 3/4 oz Crown Royal whiskey, 3/4 oz Peach Schnapps, and a splash of Sweet & Sour mix). Typically I use 90 proof Peach Schnapps at home, and double the whiskey, so one drink is the equivalent of 3 to 5 drinks. But I also like straight Sailor Jerry, or Tequila. :D

Some other things that really caught my attention in the formsprings were people's favorite/least favorite and things they'd like to see here in my blog. One person said their least favorite part was if/when I talked about Adam, but that they understand that this is a place to vent so it was okay. And they're so very right. Thats where I stake my claim to my blog and my free speech, but I don't mean to offend anyone really, or even speak badly of anyone. I try to reign in what I say and how I say it as to not cause a bigger commotion. Adam is my past. He is what "was"... and I'm happy to say I'm over that. But until he manages to tie up the loose ends, he's still present in my life. However I can promise you that as soon as he forks over my money and my belongings, its soooooo long, buddy! :) I've been meaning to let my post out from the queue about the whole ex/current bf situation so maybe I will tonight. I need to ~edit.

Another person said they wished I updated more like I used to, and they'd like to see more personal entries. I'm happy to say that that is my plan! So sorry I've been so wishy-washy with it as of late, but I'm back! I promise! and Mike has given me the a-okay to include him in on the posts, seeing as he's such a big part of my life now it's only appropriate.

And last but not least, I want to say a huge THANK YOU to all the kind words y'all have said. I'm so very glad you can relate, or if you find something inspiring, or anything to that degree. You make me feel better about my ridiculously long, drawn out posts, and you make me want to update more! So thanks again! You are all fantastic!

I'll do Round 2 soon! If you'd like to ask me anything, share your favorite/least favorite parts of the blog, or just say something (constructive criticism is welcome!), feel free to CLICK HERE and fill out the formspring! Remember, its completely anonymous! or you can leave a comment, or email me! (kaelahbee at gmail dot com)



oh goodness gracious, must i always start these updates with the same line? maybe i should... nevertheless, its been a busy week thus far! while i've accomplished far less than i care to admit, i've managed to spend time with some of the most fantastic people in my life. tonight is the first night in WELL over a week that i havent slept beside Mike. true story. i love cuddling up in bed with a movie and just falling asleep, and then seeing his adorable face upon awakening. as silly as it may sound to say this about a boy, i'm truly blessed to be where i am currently and to have someone who cares for me so incredibly much. he's quite amazing and it almost feels weird to be treated this well. however i stand by the fact that i most certainly deserve to be treated like a queen, as do all of you. and i do my absolute best to reciprocate that to him. it's amazing to just lay there with someone you can have SUCH an intelligent conversation with. forgive me for saying this, but hands down, most all of the boys i've dated in the past were just plain STUPID. i felt like i needed to dumb myself down to his level so that he could understand me. but mike has the intellect, and vocabulary to match, that anyone would be proud of. he's always so willing to help any and everywhere he can, and he's simply a breath of fresh air. absolutely brilliant brilliant brilliant! and to make things EVEN better, my mother adores him so (she always has) and my step-father already agrees. a funny sidenote: i (regretfully) broke up with mike for adam 3 years ago and my mother was SO livid. i remember conversations with her on multiple occasions for how selfish and ridiculous my decision was. granted, she knows i'm a grown woman and i can do as i please, however she was NOT a happy camper.

upon finding myself in a very very awful mood thanks to the ex, my mother simply said "don't worry about him. focus your energy on your relationship with mike because kaelah, you've got something good thing. i have a feeling this is exactly what you've been looking for"... maybe thats a lot of pressure to put on such a young relationship, but i have no expectations. i'm completely open to experiencing things as they come.

oh my goodness i'm gushing! i should really stop that :) i apologize for my 9th grade girl moment there. i'll just say that i'm incredibly happy with the turn of events. :)


on tuesday i ventured up to hendersonville to get tattooed. jason worked on the forearm of my sleeve for about 3 hours. we just filled in the black of the octopus' ink cloud up around my elbow. the tattoo didnt hurt at all, thank goodness. i just read trashy celebrity magazines the whole time, but man oh man, i was in pain for 2 solid days after. i'm still sore now. it was so bad i couldn't use my right arm all day yesterday. i even sported some blue saranwrap at our party last night!

after that i headed over to Mike's place and we watched some tv, ran many errands, started making the vodka gummies for the party the next night. we had an entire bag of gummie worms, then an entire bag of gummie bears. we sliced each in an area or three and poured an entire bottle of vodka over the top. i dont drink vodka, so i didnt partake in the consumption, but i was told they were WAY WAY potent. luckily a girl loved them so much, she asked for a huge ziploc bag of them. i gladly obliged, seeing as i didnt want them at my house afterward haha this photo is directly when i made them, over 2/3 of the vodka was soaked up within 18 hours.

at some point i managed to go to target, probably when i wasn't supposed to... seeing as target is my absolute evil when it comes to my bank account. man oh man, i wonder if its possible to be OCD with Target? like, i feel if i DONT go to target and buy dresses, etc, then i may die. serious. well... sort of. no, totally serious. here's 5 of the 7 dresses I bought.... ha! (the other 2 were just tank dresses, but totally cute tank dresses! and even better, they were on clearance! hey 2 dresses for $28!!!)

while running errands, we passed past the 4 tacky decorated houses that just so happen to be down the street from mike's house. these are the houses i claim tripped acid and then santa threw up on them. HOW ON EARTH IS A FIRE-BREATHING DRAGON RELEVANT TO CHRISTMAS?! oh wait, he's wearing a santa hat. TOTALLY MAKES SENSE, BRO!

the party was wednesday night and it was a lot of fun. i barely drank really, and i'm glad that was the case. i've been toying with the idea of giving it up completely. i'm beginning to think that even though i'm a bartender and i love to go out socially, a cleaner lifestyle is something that i should be focusing on at this point in my life. we'll see. i'm sure i'll continue to go out for beers with my friends randomly, but i even told Mike tonight that i've considered giving it up for a while. hmm.. anywhoo, lots of lovely faces showed up and i was grateful for everyone stopping by. the house was abuzz from about 8:30pm until 1:30am or so. i was so glad to crawl into bed at 2am. so so so glad. here's a picture of Caitlin, Tiffany, and myself. Tiff showed up in teh same exact dress as me, but the pink version! i color coded mine to match my blue saran wrap that you can't even see in teh picture. bummer!

today mike and i went to the mall, had some soup at panera, drove down to my parents' house in hohenwald, hung out, got dinner, and then he drove to his parents' house in lawrenceburg. i've been kicking it, watching shark tv shows, the jersey shore, and a straight edge documentary... livin' the life. baby g is snoring in front of me and i'm about to call it a night.

oh, peep the church marquee coming into my hometown. haha look familiar? it's the same quote that is on my upper arm in my right arm sleeve. but mine is the actual quote "i cannot change the direction of the wind but i can adjust my sails" niiiiceee.

OKAY! DONE NOW! I PROMISE TO NEVER GIVE YOU AN ENTRY THAT LONG EVER AGAIN! gah! mission accomplished! going to bed. goodnight all <3

ps; please do my formspring! just click HERE! its anonymous!



it's that time of the year again. well... something to that effect. a random formspring for you to do! random questions, but a lot of them help me figure out what i'm doing right/wrong here. granted, it's my blog but at the same time, i want to make it enjoyable for YOU, since you're obviously the most important part. it's real quick, just a couple of questions! nothing major! and its COMPLETELY anonymous! <3

click HERE to take it!

Things I Love Thursday!

WOOOHOOO! back on a regular blog schedule, i do hope! i'm making mike promise to help keep me motivated so i update at least once a day like i promised i would. he's also supposed to be helping me reign in my spending but we definitely went to the mall today (however, i only bought 1 adorable pair of bright red suede-esque heels! only $10! win!). now we're sitting at panera where we enjoyed an awesome bowl of soup and we're thinking about heading to my parents' house. anyway, here are the things that i'm loving this week!

1. my sweet fat baby G! she's getting oh so big! she's probably almost 60 pounds! she'll celebrate her 7 month-birthday (does that exist?!) on christmas eve! so excited to have her first christmas this year! man oh man i can't wait to wrap her presents! also, peep my new curtains behind us! bought them at World Market with Mike earlier this week and they're awesome! they're a bit too long so I may need to go trade them in but i do love them so!

2. Having my picture from Seventeen on someone's mirror/room as "inspiration"! so so incredibly flattering! a lovely girl sent this to me on MySpace this week. sorry if its a bit narcissistic but its flattering nonetheless! thanks lady!
3. this is what i aspire to. i won't be the cat lady... no... i'll be the SHARK LADY!

4. Brilliant tattoo work found via FUCKYEAHTATTOOS.tumblr.com!

5. CUTEST picture ever! found via FUCKYEAHBULLDOGS.com!

6. shark macros!

7. RUBY, the clothing line, out of New Zealand. Mainly this gorgeous light pink coat! *swoon!*

8. a vespa with a sidecar! get in my life!

9. Wedding & Engagement photography by Clayton Austin! I LOVE that his URL is Clayton Austin Love Stories! Brilliant! go take a peek!

10. CUTEST WEDDING TOPPERS EVER! and I especially love the bunting in the back that says LOVE IS SWEET!

what are YOU loving this week?!