// Pregnancy Diaries - v.1

seventeen weeks

I've been wanting to write specifically about my pregnancy for a while now, but despite sitting on top of a handful of half-finished posts, I just haven't done it yet. To be honest it still feels so surreal. I haven't felt Baby Flynn kick yet, though I'm sure that'll bring ~*ALL THE FEELZ. Right now the only obvious sign of this bun in the oven is my ever-growing midsection (plus insatiable appetite and chronic fatigue!) I'm at 18.5 weeks now... almost halfway there, yet it feels like it hasn't even started yet.

I've spent a lot of time daydreaming about being pregnant. What if wear and how I'd look. Wondering if I'd read or sing to the baby. Actually being pregnant has been a new experience in and of itself. Those "preparation" books don't tell you about feeling totally awkward the entire time! Is that just me?! I mean, I know there's a baby in there and all, but how am I supposed to not feel slightly silly talking to my belly?! Haha and looking cute?! Please! I hardly have the energy to even entertain that thought.

did you know they made insanely cute shark stuff for babies?!

My absence on the blog for December and January was incredibly obvious, but man I couldn't even manage to get off the couch most days! Aside from battling some not-so-fun nausea, I didn't throw up the first time. (Huzzah! Throwing up is my "first worst"... I'm like Jerry Seinfeld because I keep up with how long it's been. 3 years, 7 weeks. Thank you very much). The fatigue was (and still is) pretty awful though. I let so much slide in those 2 months. I've been playing a mad game of catch up ever since. But without a doubt the hardest part of the first trimester was the anxiety. I know I'm ultra hormonal and all, but rarely did a day pass where I didn't just cry out of absolute fear. Fear that something unexplainable would happen at any moment (I still fear this... and even if I have a healthy, happy pregnancy (and baby), I'm sure that fear won't go away.) It's not something I've told many people before, but my #1 fear in life is that I couldn't/wouldn't be able to have children. So when I saw those (four! Because apparently I didn't believe the first three...) positive pregnancy tests, I almost let my fear overshadow my excitement.

a gorgeous package for my boys from brittany + my friends at the hunt

So many of my friends have experienced such profound losses. Whether it was loss during pregnancy or just trouble conceiving, my heart aches for them. And such a large part of me felt guilty when I found out we were expecting. I wasn't sure how to celebrate our news without feeling like a traitor of sorts. I know no one can be blamed for these sorts of things, and I truly do know what a blessing a pregnancy is (especially a healthy one thus far). I guess part of me will always hurt for those I hold near and dear. I'm not even sure this was a complete thought. Do y'all at least get what I mean?

Lately, as my belly grows, I've found myself sort of "cradling" it with my hands. Mike and I were walking into a store the other day and he made a silly quip about it, but that's when it became apparent to me. It's almost like I'm trying to protect it or something. Like most pregnant women, I'm hyper aware of buggies, cars, and other shoppers. But not only that, but I'm also starting to feel that "connection" with the baby. Like HELLO! There's an actual human *growing* inside of me right now! It's so totally bizarre and animalistic. It's amazing, but brain boggling. I don't even notice that I'm doing it most of the time, but chances are if you see me out and about I've got my hands all over my belly. I want to make sure I don't miss any movement or any "time" touching the baby. Is that totally silly?! Haha

only the best for this baby haha! (long live a league of their own!)

I've started living in jeggings and maternity v-necks because then I actually get to look (and feel) pregnant. The dresses of mine that still fit just make me look like I've chowed down at a Mexican buffet haha I know I'll probably grow tired of it down the line, but right now it's fun when people notice. (Though the few unsolicited and slight rude comments I've received could have been done without!) the good with the bad I guess. I'm sure I'll balloon up before long, but the "looking pregnant" part is so fun for right now!

Just thinking about my pregnancy being half over total spins my head. There's so much I want to say and share, but I've made sure to tread lightly thus far, assuring myself that I won't become a pregnancy/mommy blog. Still, I want to document these things, even if they're not the most relatable or popular across the board. Growing a new life is something each expectant mom experiences differently. I want to be able to look back on this for years to come. Plus it'll be funny to glance back at the insanely expensive baby stuff I was lusting after (but will never buy because, uh, too rich for my blood!) You should see my make-believe baby registry... it's stupid crazy. (A girl can dream!)

sixteen weeks

I definitely plan on going back and finishing the several posts I have in my drafts. Even if just to humor myself! Despite the occasional uncomfortable moment, I've absolutely loved being pregnant so far. It's so hard for me to fathom that I'm actually experiencing all of this first hand... Knowing that I'll have two precious boys to call my own (in just a few months!) is absolutely amazing. Hearing Toby talk about his baby brother makes me just well up!

Thanks for letting me share such personal parts of our lives here. I know I rarely shy away from "filler" content and things that'll appeal to the masses, but it's these honest, personal posts that make me love this space so much. It really is like having hundreds (thousands?!) of best friends. Yall are always so supportive!

PS; Does documenting your growing baby bump *ever* get old?! I have so much fun trying to notice the progress each and every day. It's hard not to post a photo every time haha! Sometimes it feels like the baby has doubled in size in a matter of hours, but that's probably just my big lunch talking...

// Things I Love Thursday v.173

these are INCREDIBLE! 2D artwork brought to life by makeup! ♥
this gif! "oh gosh i hurt you? oh no! i'm so sorry! so sorry!" ♥
this halloween inspired simpsons flash sheet! ♥
♥ the caption on this photo was "i love guacamole" + i about died! ♥
these goats in sweaters! ♥
♥ i'd love a dress made out of this fabric! ♥
♥ this shoe illo. (source?!) ♥
this. "oops." ♥
this adventure time piece! ♥
this fierce gal! ♥

// Paul Rudd will forever be my celebrity heartthrob. This makes me love him even more! (Bonus: here are some great gifs from his performance!)

// What do you get when you combine a 4 year old girl and paper dresses?!?! Only the cutest thing EVER!

// Indigo Box Jewels is offering up free shipping on orders over $25 and 20% off with the code CLUELESS. Get on it!

// Carrie Anne's sweater in this outfit is everything! The drape! The color! And how adorable is Isobel?!

// "The clothes in Clueless weren't really what the kids were wearing..." Love the insight from the costume designer of my all-time favorite flick!

// If you want to be constantly amazed by the advancements we're making in any and everything science related, this is the blog for you. It's one of my favorite Facebook pages to follow, too. SCIENC IS SO COOL, YOU GUYS!

// Unpopular opinion: I think tattoos are corny and degrading. Obviously *I* don't feel this way at all, but I couldn't help but throw the conversation into the mix this week!

// My weekly BeauCoo favorites: this mega babe! (that pink and white outfit is the bomb dot com!) // this neutral but girly combo // this patterned dress with this coat! // an outfit i totally wish i could pull off

// It's been a few weeks since I blogged about Swapdom. Have any of y'all signed up yet?! (Send me your links so I can see what you have up for swapsies!)

// Love this Now + Then post from Joelle!

// 9 signs that you shouldn't buy that item of clothing you're trying to talk yourself into buying. My personal rule is if I wouldn't take off what I'm wearing that exact moment to change into it, I probably don't want/need it.

// Happy (belated) birthday, Panda! Gosh, this guinea pig is seriously so cute. And look at their new addition, Woody!

// Wishlist Wears: this novelty print dress (covered in precious little "inns") // two of my favorite things: pink and big polka dots! // these gorgeous peach and white shoes. ahh! // i'm *this* close to buying this dress. it's seriously AMAZING! // i'm obsessed with the colors on this dress. tangerine + mustard! // saltwaters for the summer! (loving the yellow, too) // by far the most beautiful thing i've ever linked on my blog (and the most expensive, too!) // the colors of this Gap dress are so good // the prettiest scarf ever

// Have you 'liked' The Clueless Girl's Guide on Facebook?! I'm going to start posting some stuff over that way that won't really make it anywhere else on the blog or social media! I've been wanting to share some favorite quotes, affirmations, anecdotes and things like that. You know, just start some fun conversations! I'd love to have you!

What are you loving this week?

// Mike's Big Dream (+ Our Plans!)

I've hinted briefly over the past several weeks at some big test and big news coming our way... and the confirmation of said news finally came this past Friday. Over the last several months we've been weighing the pros and cons as a family, and deciding just what risks to take. Now I can finally share what all of that hoopla has been about! Mike is going back to school!

"Going back to school" is honestly a bit misleading since that would imply he'll be doing something similar to what he did originally, but it couldn't be farther from the truth. Rather than pursue the art degree he started many moons ago, he's going to nursing school! Working in the medical field is one of his biggest dreams, and I'm so proud of him for making that call. His plan is to get to the top of the top and become a Nurse Practitioner (with his Doctorate degree!) Back in the day his (medical) goal was to be a Physician's Assistant (which, just like a DNP, is a mid-level physician), but he's since decided that the nursing route is for him. He could always change his mind and choose to apply to a PA program when it comes time, but after countless hours and sleepless nights full of conversations, we think this is the perfect plan. Of course plans and dreams change, but I can tell just how motivated he is by this goal.

Owning a brick and mortar retail store has always been my dream. Being 100% self-employed has always been what I see for myself. And Mike has always been there to support me 110%. Now it's my turn to support his dream. To see him through these long, hard years. It won't be easy, and it probably won't be fun, but I know great things lie ahead for our family.

I can't imagine going back to school in my mid-twenties, so I'm giving him a constant round of applause. He's so motivated and dedicated to making this happen, and it's so inspiring to see that sort of drive in a person. We're trying as hard as we can to get as much done as possible for this baby (and life in general!) before his first day of class on May 1st. He'll spend his first year getting his LPN license, then he'll move on to a few years of training to be an RN. After that we'll have to make the call on where we'll move so he can pursue his MSN and/or DNP degree. Luckily Nashville is a great city for this, you know, being the healthcare capital and all. But there will be a lot of decisions to be made over the coming years. I'm just hoping we can all hold it together while he spends long, exhausting days at school and clinicals. It's going to be a big and busy year for the Flynns! Here we go!

Please feel free to send your congratulations and excitement Mike's way if you feel so inclined! I'm sure he'd love to know he's being supported by so many of my friends! (You can always leave a comment below or tweet him @miikeflynn!)

// You Are Good Enough

Today I have a special guest, Ebonnie, here to share her Tumblr project that aims to inspire girls and remind them that they are good enough. Ebonnie's idea is simple enough, and sometimes that's the perfect way to get your message across. Her project is accessible and far-reaching. I'm a huge fan of any and everything that helps promote positivity and self esteem. Today Ebonnie is going to tell us a little more about You Are Good Enough and share how we can all get involved!

Hi Ebonnie! Thanks so much for joining us today and for being our PRIME sponsor for this month! I want everyone to get a feel for what You Are Good Enough is all about.

What inspired you to start You Are Good Enough?
I started You Are Good Enough after I started to suffer from depression, I would go online and all I could seem to find were pictures and blogs about never being perfect, never being beautiful, never being good enough and it drove me deeper and deeper down into that black hole, and then one day I woke up.

I realized that none of that is true, and that for the sake of the girls and guys who run those sorts of blogs, and for the sake of the girls and guys who read them, there had to be something positive out there as well, so I created my You Are Good Enough Tumblr, in order to help me out of my depression, and hopefully will help others as well

Can you tell us a little more about you? The girl behind the project?
My name is Ebonnie and I’m a 19 year old makeup artist and body piercer living in the capitol city of Australia, I’m tattooed and pierced and believe that your body is a canvas for you to decorate how you please.

While I was in college I bought my first of many loves, my beautiful back Kawasaki cruiser Polly, who I rode until only recently when she broke down and I had to buy a car. One day I hope to move to New York and study fashion design, but I try not to make concrete plans in my life. I prefer to let life come to me and just enjoy the ride.

If you could sum up your message in one, short sentence, what would it be?
Every girl and boy on this planet is good enough for anything they could ever possibly hope to achieve
How has You Are Enough grown from the very beginning?
Well that’s the thing, other then a few people submitting when I first started it, life got busy, things got in the way and I stopped promoting it, it fell to the back of my mind and it never really became what I wanted it too, but that’s why I decided to sponsor Kaelah, so I can get this blog really going and hopefully brighten someones day.

Any specific reason why you chose Tumblr as your platform?
I chose tumblr because I think it’s the easiest site for anyone to access, you don’t have to have a tumblr account to few and get involved with this blog, you just need the url and a few minutes to snap a photo of yourself and upload it!

Do you have any “end goals” you’d like to reach with your project? Or is it more of a hobby you do for fun?
I would love to see people from all over the world upload pictures to this blog, I would love to have you are good enough written in all different languages presented on the blog from all different people of different walks of life, to have submissions everyday so the flow of positivity never stops
What do you hope your audience will take away from You Are Good Enough?
I hope that they will take away the knowledge and understanding that they are good enough, that people set their own restrictions in life and that doesn’t have to be the case, and that there are places you can go on the internet that won’t fill your head with negativity, that you can come to this site and not only help yourself but help others as well.

How can other people get involved? Do you only accept photos or do you have plans on expanding into writing at some point, too?
Getting involved with You Are Good Enough is as easy as snapping a photo of yourself, or you with some friends, with the words You Are Good Enough written on your hand, once it has taken off, I would love to expand into getting people to share their stories of success and achievement, but for now at the beginning I’d like it to be an easy thing for people to do and get involved in that will only take 5 minutes
Do you think the power of positivity has the ability to affect people and inspire them to live fuller, richer lives?
Absolutely, positivity has the power to change the world

Are there any last words you’d like to share with my readers today?
I would just like to say thank you for taking the time to learn about me and my project and I would really love to hear from you and see your pictures getting uploaded to the blog, it would mean so much to me to see everyone getting involved and spreading the word about it! I hope you guys have an amazing day!

Thanks so much Ebonnie! It's been an absolute treating having you!

If you're interested in submitting a photo or two to Ebonnie's project, be sure to visit You Are Good Enough and click "Submit" in the very upper left corner of your browser! (It's a little bit hidden but if you look you'll see it!) If you'd like to support her project without contributing yourself then you can always share the project on your blog or reblog straight from her Tumblr!

If you're interested in becoming a PRIME sponsor (or any size at all!), don't hesitate to get in touch! Email me within the next 5 days and get a special discount! xo

// Happy Gotcha Day, Toby!

It's been two years since Toby came to live with us full-time, and in many ways that's so hard to believe. Two years! Part of me feels like it was just yesterday and it still feels so new, but the other part of me feels like he's been with us for decades haha I guess that's what it's like when you're parents to a 5 year old! 

We celebrated yesterday with a custom TMNT cake and Turtle Tracks ice cream. We spent most of the morning out teaching Toby how to ride his new bike, and then capped off the evening by playing with his new styrofoam airplane. It only got stuck on top of the house a few times haha It was a very, very good day.

When I think about the circumstances surrounding our custody situation I often feel like maybe it's "wrong" or "weird" to celebrate such a day, but then I remember that we're all in a better place because he's here. We gave Toby a safe, loving environment to grow and flourish, and he gave us stability and the foundation of a home. We all came out on top.

I'm so grateful we were able to bring him into our home and show him what unconditional love truly feels like. I can't even begin to explain how much I feel I have grown in these past two years. And Toby! He's such a blossoming little dude now. He's full of so much personality and excitement. He couldn't be more different than the Friday we brought him home with us. I've also been able to watch Mike melt into this puddle each and every time Toby is around. He'll sneak a kiss on the top of his head when he walks by, or give him a hug "just because."

We'll always celebrate birthdays and things like that, but I'm especially fond of Toby's "Gotcha Day" because that's when the three of us became a family. I feel blessed each and every day when he wakes up and calls for "Mom" or when he asks me to read him a bedtime story each night. He's going to be the very best big brother, just like he's the very best son. 

Happy Gotcha Day, Toby! We love you more than words can say!

PS; Here's the post about bringing him home, and here's his first Gotcha Day!

// Win A Snazzy Pair of Shoes from ShoeMint!

Hey friends! I'm back again with another ultra rad giveaway from ShoeMint! I have so many (amazing) pairs of ShoeMint shoes! It's always a thrill to have them back offering y'all up something fancy. They're basically a one-stop shop for all sorts of footwear... wedges, booties, heels, and flats. Whatever your shoe style is, they can provide. I feel like it's such a good partnership to have them here on TCGG because they can appeal to such a wide variety of gals.

If you're not already familiar with ShoeMint, they're a free, members only website with personalized style recommendations, tips and trend reports. They release exclusive monthly shoe collections (over 30 styles!) and their price points range from $70 to $150. They use real leather and suede for an ultra luxurious feel (and they last for ages!). They offer free shipping both ways (!!!) and they even offer an edited assortment of emerging and established brands such as Superga, Schutz, and Yosi Samra. Are you in love yet?

All you have to do to enter is: Visit ShoeMint + sign up to check out the shoes! (Totally free, takes 5 seconds, and you have absolutely no obligation to buy!). Then pick out your favorite pair and tell us in the comments below!

One winner will be chosen at random next week and notified shortly thereafter. Sadly this giveaway is only open to US and Canada! But don't let that stop you from oogling everything they have! Maybe it'll spark some inspiration for your next shoe purchase!

PS; If you find a few pairs that you simply just can't live without (or you're far too impatient to wait for the winning announcement), you can take 20% off of your first ShoeMint purchase! Shop on, friends!

Congrats Meg!

// Things I Love Thursday v.172

Hello from sunny (and windy!) Vegas! I'm keeping the link section in today's TiLT short but sweet since it's already past noon at home and I'm tardy to the party! I guess it's better late than never, right? Let's all drool over these pictures together! Feel free to let me know your favorites! xo
this is so true. ♥
♥ i love pictures like this! (more cute animals at the source) ♥
these james franco socks ♥
this illustration ♥
this super cute gif! ♥
♥ hah! would you wear this? ♥
♥ this is how i feel 24/7 haha ♥
♥ this dude! jason schwartzman is a man among boys. ♥

// Have any of you submitted photos to Ebonnie's project You Are Good Enough?! I'm going to share more about her endeavor this weekend!
// I love the brown ombre hues in this necklace. And I think this would be such a lovely little dainty gift for a friend who is fixing to move out of the country for a few years. I also think this would be so cute thrown over a loose tunic!

// A few favorite outfits recently shared on BeauCoo are: this dress // this dress and cover-up // and this gorgeous top (how cute is she?!)

// This is the cutest pregnant gal ever. If I'm half as adorable at 33 weeks, I'll be counting my blessings!

// She Said/She Said: Dear friends with kids, Dear friends without kids. I'd totally be interested in hearing what y'all thought of this!

// Four secrets to our happy marriage. This was such a lovely read!

// Nothing good ever comes from reading your partners' emails. Someone should have told me this when I was 19... ugh.

What are you loving this week?

// Amelia

This dress immediately made me think of Amelia Earhart, despite most likely not being her style (ha!). It's covered in schematic drawings of prop planes, helicopters and fighter jets. I loved how "all American" it felt so I added a red belt and a white polka dot cardigan. The fit and cut of this dress is so incredibly flattering! I bought it one size up (XL) from my regular size, but it really does fit more like a L instead. Just a heads up incase you decide to buy it! It could be my growing midsection, who knows! But I'm hoping the waist sits high enough that I can continue to wear it throughout my pregnancy. It's the perfect length for Spring and Summer strolling. I'd highly recommend it to everyone. No joke. It's probably one of my favorite dresses of the moment.

The weather has been pretty amazing in Vegas so far! With highs in the mid-70s, I'm not sure I'm ready to go back to the gloom of Tennessee! I definitely miss my boys (and my Bump Nest pillow! haha) but it's been so fun to meet new people and enjoy a nice little trip away from home. I definitely promise to fill y'all in on all of the WWDMAGIC and Vegas happenings though! I figure it's better to do dedicated posts rather than litter each one of my outfit posts with anecdotes and happenings. Plus if you follow me on Twitter or Instagram, you're already getting a hefty dose of the goings on! (Sorry if it's overkilL! We have a set number of shares we have to do each day/hour, and it's definitely higher than my normal volume! Regular posting will resume after the trip! haha)

Some of you may already know this, but I'm obsessed with Cirque Du Soleil. I own the Anniversary collection on DVD but I've only had the pleasure of seeing one show in person (Saltimbanco in 2009!) I really wanted to see a show while I was in Vegas last August but my schedule simply didn't allow. Since I don't plan on spending as much time in the casinos or at Happy Hour this time around, I'm considering splurging on a show! I've always wanted to see "O," but I've heard great things about "Love" and "Zumanity." Each one is so unique and different, and I know they'd all impress! Have y'all seen any of their shows in Vegas before? Which one(s) do you recommend?! I keep talking myself out of it because the ticket prices are so high but then I remember just how magical it was to witness it in person. Everything about Cirque is totally insane and I love it!

Now I'm off to Day Two of MAGIC! I'll be sitting in on some panels today and hopefully seeing what the rest of the floor has to offer. Wish me luck! xo

Belt from a Bernie Dexter dress
Thrifted clutch