The third trimester is a beast. There's no other way to say it. I was not really prepared for the emotional rollercoaster that came with these last few weeks. Up until this point this pregnancy has been pretty much a breeze. It's easy to look past the occasional "uncomfortable" moment when you compare it to just how awesome it is to experience this journey. But holy moly, y'all! The hormones! I can seriously just be sitting here doing nothing and break out into tears. If it makes me laugh, I'll cry. If it makes me sad, I'll cry. I've just been in a very heightened emotional state and I feel like I need to wear a big ol' disclaimer or warning on my belly so people just know to take me with a grain of salt as of late.
I know it can be a little "awkward" to publicly talk about crying and all that jazz, but you know what? It's real life. And right now it's a really big part of real life haha! Luckily after talking to several of my mama friends I've been reassured that the crazy hormonal fluctuations are totally normal and it's okay to take a bath mid-day just to sort of allow yourself a private and peaceful moment to cry. (Yep, those have been a staple lately...) And the real kicker? I have nothing to be upset over! I'm not sad or depressed or anything like that. I think it's just a mix of anxiety, fear, fatigue, etc. Everything is hitting my body all at once. It all feels so real but I'm trying to convince myself that I've got it all under control. Even some of my favorite songs from high school make me tear up uncontrollably. Unfortunately some short-temperedness has also come along. I'm trying to practice a lot of patience and not get too worked up over anything. Oh, mood swings! Gotta love 'em.
Lately I've been watching my blood pressure and being mindful of my general health. At my 32-week appointment I had a spike in my blood pressure and was then ordered to do some blood tests and a fun little thing they call the "24 hour urine." Yep... And it's exactly what it sounds like. You get to pee in a jug for 24 full hours! And keep it in your fridge! (I know, this post just got way too TMI. But again, it comes with the territory!) Despite being totally inconvenient and slightly embarrassing (I was convinced I was going to trip with it in my bag and spill it all over the place when I went back to the doctor... ha! Can you imagine?!), everything has checked out so far. I go back on Wednesday when I hit 34 weeks (!!!) so my doctor can say yay or nay on our Florida trip coming up on Friday. After we get back from Florida I'll go for a 36 week visit and get the news on whether or not I'm okay to go to Chicago for Susannah's wedding. Fingers crossed! I've been so stressed out and worried about the (terrifying) possibility of pre-eclampsia that I've totally made myself experience some phantom symptoms. I think I just need to remind myself that my body was meant to do this and that I don't have any reason to worry about the next 6 weeks. Y'all, this baby is going to be here any day now! Obviously I'm still working on the "calming down" part of it all...
In addition to the tidal wave of emotions taking over my body, I've also developed another fun little pregnancy symptom: The waddle. Oh the waddle! I can actually feel myself shift my entire body weight from one hip to the next as I walk. At this point I'm wondering when I'll just start rolling places haha And yes, random stranger in passing, I *am* sure there's only one in there... *eyeroll* haha
Everything at home has been smooth sailing though because luckily Toby is in hog heaven knowing that he gets to go to the beach for almost 2 weeks and that shortly after his baby brother will be here. It's basically all he can talk about at this point. We just have to make it through this work-week and we can unwind for a week and a half in the sun and sand. Bring it on!
Here's to hoping this little dude stays put until his due date, our vacation goes well, and I get to stand beside my best friend as she marries her long-time love. We've got a lot to look forward to in the coming weeks and I'm going to try and enjoy every single second of it. Sounds like a plan, right? Happy Monday! xo