And I don't feel any different... Oh, Ben Gibbard. While I certainly love any and all Death Cab, especially this song, I can't quite relate this go around. We're exactly one week into 2017 and I'm pretty sure I've experienced the full spectrum of emotion already haha I've been sitting on a few blog posts for a while now, but I just can't publish them. I know I'll be able to in time, and I'm certainly in no rush, but I can't keep waiting on myself. I kept telling myself that I could start writing here (or a new blog - you can tell it takes conscious effort to write here) once I knew how to handle those unpublished posts, but days turned into weeks then months, etc. And I failed to document pretty big moments around here (like my first Christmas as a single mom, the boys' dad apparently getting engaged, and me having a boyfriend again. So yeah.) I know we'll all survive even if I don't blog it all, but I love looking back on old posts, even the bittersweet ones. There's no such thing as the "perfect time" to do anything so I decided to dust off the ol' keyboard and take a crack at it in honor of the new year. There's a lot of new happening around here so it felt like time.
So, yes! 2017! Here we are!
I drove home (from spending New Years in St. Louis) on Monday, the 2nd, and naturally got called to the hospital for a doula client not long after I hit the Tennessee line. It all worked out though! (My call schedule was covered by my partner while I was gone) Tuesday was mostly a blur of trying to catch up on everything I missed during the previous couple of days. Tedious errands like paying bills and going grocery shopping. Toby started back to school on Wednesday morning and I sat through some pretty grueling meetings the entire day. There aren't enough words for that day, to be honest. Thursday was spent stuffing contractor bags full of toys, clothing, and baby items that need to get clearrrrrrred out! I'm casually working on turning Linden's nursery back into a workspace for myself since he now shares a room with Toby. It's going to feel so good to actually have a dedicated space to store and use my craft supplies! That evening brought our ol' favorite: Boy Scouts. Toby finally got his Bobcat badge and he worked on a few of his skills for his next badge. The news called for some flurries of snow in our part of the mid-state overnight into Friday, and I was very cynical about the whole thing once they called off school and I had yet to see a single snowflake. Wellllllll I certainly woke up eating my words haha! Toby was stoked there was so much snow outside (and by "so much" I mean like an inch or two - aka a Tennessee blizzard). He had done all of his ~snow magic stuff, including flushing an ice cube down the toilet. He was convinced this was his doing, so I let him revel in that. Since there was no school we just all lazed around and took it easy. Thank goodness I acted on my Chinese food craving on Thursday because we totally had takeout leftovers for dinner. No complaints from me! Today I have a Music City Doulas agency meeting in Murfreesboro and then it's back to the purging grind.
Overall I'm pretty pleased with the start of my 2017. 2016 was transformative in so many ways. I spent the entire year rebuilding everything that had been demolished the year before. I decided to put the pieces back together a little differently so I'm a work-in-progress. Progress over perfection, right? I hope your New Year is looking promising as well.
xo KB
I don't comment much (laziness) but I still very much enjoy reading your posts. Transformative is exactly the word I used to describe my own experiences in 2016. Glad your new year is off to a good start. You're looking adorable and those balloons are perfect. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy to have you here, Steph! Whether you comment regularly or just lurk - you're so very appreciated! <3
DeleteI am so happy to hear that your 2017 started off wonderfully. <3
ReplyDelete<3 Thanks Laura!
DeleteTransformative, indeed! Happiness looks good on you. 2017 is my transformative year... and I am looking so forward to writing that down for myself! I hope your 2017 continues to show you much love! --Amanda Dunlap
ReplyDeleteThanks Amanda! I hope you knock 2017 out of the park! <3
DeleteLong time reader but I haven't ever commented. Just want to say I'm so happy for you and I'm so glad your 2017 is looking awesome. I have read your blog for a few years now and you seem like such a genuine, lovely person. I'm really glad you're happy! You look incredible in these photos x
ReplyDeleteThank you so much <3 Such kind words for your first comment! They mean so much xo
DeleteKaelah, I feel although my 2017 might end up being similar to your 2015. So thanks for being brave in our own life to make the hard choices and rebuild. but also for being brave enough to share with us. Your progress gives me hope for my own future and makes me so happy for you.
ReplyDelete<3 Thank you for your incredibly kind comment and for being part of my story. Even though I can't imagine ever feeling more broken than I did then, I'm grateful for the opportunity to get to know myself all over again. I've missed this KB. Should your 2017 be rocky, just remember that fortune favors the brave. And I can guarantee you're brave, too <3
DeleteKaelah you look amazing! and super happy :) My oldest blogger friend LJ rating community days lols forever. I will get to see you in TN one day haha xx
ReplyDeleteAw thanks lady! Hope you are doing well!
Delete2016 was rough on me as well and spent a good chunk of it rebuilding. I am so glad your year is off to a good start! I wish you a happy and healthy New Year ahead :]
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Right back at ya, sweet friend! xo
DeleteYou're one tough cookie and I hope 2017 is amazing for you!
ReplyDeleteThanks Claire! I hope yours is rad too!
DeleteHello! Long time follower, first time commenter. (If that's a word?) I started reading your blog when you were in NY? But then didn't for a while after you got hitched and Linden was born, and boy was there change when I came back to your blogs. Glad everything has turned out well for you. Changes are hard but opportunities for new beginnings and wonderful adventure. Happy 2017 to you and I wish you the very best!
ReplyDelete-Siobhan :-)
It's certainly been a wild few years, that's for sure. I wouldn't exactly want to relive it, but I'm glad I'm where I'm at so, guess it can't all be bad, right? ;) xo
Deleteive been reading your blog literally forever, and i always feel weird commenting on total strangers "life" tidbits. its weird not to have an opinion on any of that because I've been reading about it for sooo long. ill just say whoa dude! I feel like someone needed to say that :)
ReplyDeletebut also and more importantly you look AMAZING and more than that it seems like you feel even more amazing and thats the best part. also I'm really really glad toby has you for forever.
Whoa Dude is totally an understatement I think haha And most of that is my fault - I just haven't felt like I've gotten to a place where I could write here without entirely too many emotions. Workin' on it! Thanks so much for your sweet words, lady! I'm really really glad I have Toby forever, too <3
DeleteHi Kaelah! I've been following your blog for probably going on 5 years now, though I don't really ever comment. 2016 was a sh*t storm for me personally, but 2017 is off to a transformative (and wonderful) start for me too.
ReplyDeleteI'm not going to lie, I was shocked when I started seeing stuff about you being a single mom. I was like "did I miss something?!" But I was raised by an awesome single mom, so more power to you, lady! I am glad to see you finding a new normal and a new happiness. Btw, you look amazing! Blessings to you and your boys in this new year!
Thanks so much, lady! So happy to hear 2017 is already treating you well! Here's to continued prosperity for all! Xo
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